Thursday, January 14, 2010
Blessings During LG's testimony, suddenly think of my family. Expecially my father. Still remember the day he knew I went to church, he got a big shock. He's the only who disagree to let me join church, but he still allow me to go(or maybe he dontknow where I am going all the time). After years passed, he realized that I keep on going out for church's stuffs, especially camps which cost a bomb to him. I still remember that week, I keep begging him to allow me to go for 'Heroes' camp, he keep on scolding and even wrote a list of conditions I have to do if I go for the camp, which are, Go home straight after school, do homework house work, cannot go for any other camp, and the most zzz one, leave church. I was going-to-die when i read all that, and i came into a decision - sneak out. I packed my bag, my mum ask me 'Go church?' I answered 'um' wrote a letter to father and went out.*(I know I did this is very bad, but i was very very very guilty after that!) Many mad things happen during that night, father called UL, say this say that etc. So in the end, i stayed in the camp for 4 days. But guess what happen after the camp! my mother didnt talk to me for 2 days and my father never talk to me for 4-5 months!!! Can you believe that!! But things got better slowly. Although no matter how me, & especially Jes who tries to convince my father, he still dont allow for me to go for the next camp - Unstoppable, but he allowed me to go for part time, and stayed overnight for the last day. Ya, so as I said, things got better, slowly my father talked to me, and i realise he had changed become 'nicer'! Yup, so the next camp - Level up came. I asked him if I can go for the dance bonding camp, and of course the church camp. At first he was like "AGAIN?!"*angry* but he changed the expression and ask why I keep wanting to go. So i begged him and tell him I have worked, I will use my pay to pay. * I even told him my mother allow, and my mother heard! (She was very mad about I say that she allow) So the last saturday before camp, I asked him to help me sign. He say 'ask your mother and sister to sign' in angry way and went out. So I asked my mother to sign, and she signed without saying anything!(WOW) and the most WOW, when I was happily on the way to meet cg memb @ lot1, my dad called! He ask if my mother/sister sign it(WOWWOWWOW) and he said 'why when i go out then ask me sign' in angry way (WOW) Amazing isnt it!!(But i think its because I worked -_-) And I went camp very very 'peacefully abd shoikly' finally! And now, he became so 'nice' (though something very zzz) he start to joke, crap, laugh etc when we talk. & his scolding get lesser, even when I went home late, he didnt say anything! And especially on his birthday, I gave him a nice & ex pen which look super high class (LOL) I went to work in the morning, i placed it on his bed and went out. I sent "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" to him, he replied "U still remember" (LOL SO FUNNY RIGHT!) I bet it sure think I forgot his birthday and went to work ^^ Then after awhile, he sent 'Thk u for the present' WOWWOWWOW! after work, I went home, I find the box, and i found inside is blank! He bring it out! WOW! (I hope he show off it HAHAHAAH) At night, we had dinner outside, then went home for cake, he sang with us happily! WOW, I still remember last year, he was so reluctant to sing + he said 'cake? for what?' (bash) LOL and now he was so happy! WOW And he even said we going oversea soon!!! WOW But the soon is 2 years later (ROFL) Yea, so i realized how bad my family was when I just knew Christ, and now, getting better!! If i never knew Christ, I bet now its even worst. I wouldnt treat them with love, care and I guess we all are quarreling all the time. Now i treasure everytime with them, even small little things they do, like take spoon for me, let me eat junk food. I love my family! Weixian @ 5:58 PM
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Crap I open my eyes, only to see Just how sad this world could be That I often cry alone I look at the sky, longing to see There’s a chance out there for me For my heart to be set free My friends had say that it’s ok When rainbow’s fade in clouds of gray But in my heart I know someday True happiness will come my way I never knew love till I found you I’s magic in your smile Never knew love till I saw you lookin’ in my eyes And suddenly our sadness disappears True love has fin’lly shown its smilin’ eyes on me I’m searching the skies hopin’ to see If there’s someone out there for me Who will set my poor heart free What is this I'm feelin' I just can't explain When you're near I'm just not the same I'm tryin' to hide it Try not to show it It's crazy How could it be Finally, my heart gave in I finally know how it feels When you said hello I looked in your eyes Suddenly, I felt good inside Is this really happenin' Or am I just dreaming I guess, it's true I can't believe Doesn't matter where I am Thoughts of you still linger in my mind No matter what time of day I'm afraid I'm starting to feel What I said I would not do The last time really hurt me I'm scared to fall in love Afraid to love so fast 'Cause everytime I fall in love It seems to never last But every time your love is near And every time I'm filled with fear 'Cause everytime I see your face My heart does begin to race every time One half want me to go Other half wants me to stay I just get so all confused I'm scared to fall in love Afraid to love so fast 'Cause every time I see your face Could it be that this will be the one that lasts The fear does start to erase every time Weixian @ 10:45 PM
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
10 months left Kool im back. I shall try blog often ^^ These 2 days in school, totally S.L.E.E.P.Y. I understand why 1st day sleepy, cause the night before i slept at 12am, but today, i dont understand why! Last night I slept at 10am and fall asleep very quickly, which means i get 8 hours of sleep! But when start lesson, I almost dozed off or i dozed off without knowing! (LOL) I wonder how to survive through the year~ And when chinese teacher & History cher talks about O lvl thingy, I feel something!! Like we are going to die, or end the world or dontknow how to describe feeling! And its gonna happen in 5 months/10 months time!!! Suddenly it look so less! & I still got so much dontknow yet! Its so "mind blowing, BOOM, eye popping, POP" feeling to see the countdown to O lvl clock is for me, climbing to the 4th floor, being called sec4, being called the graduating class (Super ear popping!). Though its like WAH, FINALLY~! but the feeling is so bad now!! Im going to suffer for 10 months and get out this place very soon!(which is sad then happy) but, im going to leave this place soon..which is very sad! I will miss those fun things happened (but i know very less LOL), but of course, i die also wont want come again next year la! You know what i mean. Ok, time to sleep! Only 2 days, and i almost died, how to survive for 10 more months! Weixian @ 10:48 PM
Sunday, January 3, 2010
YESSSSSSSSSH IM DONE WITH MY 15 GRAPHS!!! IN 3 HOURS (2days) LOL but actually there is few more homeworks, but i lost them -_- shall ask cher again and do. anyway, 7 hours to school, I STILL CANT BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~ Weixian @ 11:56 PM
Saturday, January 2, 2010
How could I keep from singing Your Praise There is an endless song Echoes in my soul I hear the music ring And though the storms may come I am holding on To the rock I cling How can I keep from singing Your praise How can I ever say enough How amazing is Your love How can I keep from shouting Your name I know I am loved by the King And it makes my heart want to sing I will lift my eyes In the darkest night For I know my Savior lives And I will walk with You Knowing You'll see me through And sing the songs You give I can sing in the troubled times Sing when I win I can sing when I lose my step And fall down again I can sing 'cause You pick me up Sing 'cause You're there I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord When I call to You in prayer I can sing with my last breath Sing for I know That I'll sing with the angels And the saints around the throne While singing this song, the whole journey of 2009 flash by my mind, the bad times, the good times, happy times, sad times, disappointment, angry, a big storm, and of course, blessings and many blessings! It never fail to make me touched to tears whenever i was reminded of no matter how bad or good the situation is, God is always there beside me, helping and going through with me. This song reminded me, how can I keep from singing His praise, how can I stop praising when He is so good to me! I can/will/should/must sing His praise all the time, especially in the bad times! Also, during P&W, God showed me what kind of person I am. Maybe that is why He gave me _ & _/_ when im in the out of no where/boomz situation. He gave me _, and maybe think that i will surely heck care it, so He putted _ which is my _ and I anyhow _ but still get _. But to fulfil my real _, I have to ____. So he putted me in _ to get me %$&$#@ & get my _ done well. God is very kool isnt it!!!!!!! Weixian @ 11:16 PM
Friday, January 1, 2010
Shall post before i go to my early-sleep today! 2009 had ended, and 2010 has come~ Time passed so fast, finally i step into the 4th aka last year of sec school. Very shuang but very sian diao, cause i gonna suffer for 11 months!!! 2009 is a so call good year, many miracles happen :D & God never fails to make miracle in the mist of super bad, down time! There is endless list of things to thank God for in this year, some are : Able to go for Unstoppable though its parttime, able to perform there also! Nice exprience~, Get a nice job that is quite flexible with manager in the same church! (which make me able to go for full time LEVEL UP!), as mentioned full time LEVEL UP!! & also get in Ydance!! But not only that, I also wanna thank God for VWestA1, exWestB3, sheeps, shepherds, friends in 3E3 for being in my 2009 & made some of my 'dream' come true! 2010 has come, God gave me a picture during camp, it gonna be very tough but he will be with me!! Hope that the 'dream' will come to past, cause it was repeated for 4 times! Yea, work hard, and my 3 'dreams' will come to past together!! WOOOO!!! After this Sunday, i gonna be maddddddddddd~ cause school startssssssssssss *ohman!!!* Gonna sleep early, tml there is dance in the morning! woooooooooooo~~~ Weixian @ 10:54 PM
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